Fear Less

For years I have had this feeling that something big is coming in my life. I never knew that approaching 40 was the “big” chance coming for me.  I think that it is natural for those of a certain age to ponder where you are, where you’ve been and more importantly remembering how you got there, especially at the beginning of a new year.

What resolutions will I make this year?  I usually make resolution twice a year, since my birthday falls mid-year it helps to reevaluate on my birthday. This year I stopped to really think about the word “resolution”, a firm decision to do or not to do something. This year I will resolve to stop being afraid of my potential, I know what you are thinking – wow that is kind of a broad resolution how will you measure your success?  I came up with this resolution after discovering 2 major things I was not happy with in my life. What I wanted less of and more of in 2018 that I did not get. My body and my money came to mind quickly – I wanted less of my body and more of my money. After dissecting each one to find the root of why I couldn’t maintain a healthy weight or why at age 39 I barely had enough money saved to escape to Vegas for a weekend, I discovered that I had the resources and the will to accomplish losing that weight that protects me and saving enough money for a deposit on my first house or jet off to NYC or buy those fabulous shoes that spoke to me at Macy’s 2 weeks ago that I can’t get out of my head but know if I bought them I would be short on rent and my impromptu Vegas trip would have to be more like a day trip to Hollywood Casino right here in Columbus – and a girl like me does not settle.  Whew – so that Is why my resolution is to stop being afraid of my potential. Fear is known to change behaviors like fight or flight, it can be paralyzing and impact your metabolic functions in the body. Why was fear so strong and why have I been letting it keep me from living my life girl? This would be the year that I focus on me. What do I want out of this life – a question that at any age we should be asking ourselves. Why do we wait for a new year, a milestone birthday or a traumatic event to make those changes – every day is a major life event. I woke up this morning – that is a major event. It starts now, it starts by changing your mind about fear. 

“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood.  Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less” Marie Curie